Sydney has the choice between her job (although it’s more complicated than that) and Adrian.
Sydney has been an alchemist all her life, either that or she’s been training for it. She’s always responsible for everything that’s happening, and, should something go wrong, she’s to blame. Sydney never really complains about her job, she thinks it’s her duty and she has to do it because it’s been passed through her family. She can’t choose both her job and Adrian because it is incomprehensible in her line of work to have a relationship with someone involved with magic or who’s a vampire. The only relationship allowed is a business one, that should not get personal.
In Sydney’s society, vampires are wrong and evil, she has been asked to do Gods work and will do so with a gold cross around her neck that gives her comfort. Lately though, she has been starting to enjoy being with Adrian, Eddie, Angeline etc. But she knows it’s wrong and if she ever hesitated, her visit to see Keith certainly supported how awful the re-education is. If they find out how her feelings have changed from revulsion to liking them, everything she has ever built would come crashing down. Her father is awful and would never forgive her for even kissing Adrian, she would be replaced by her sister who in my opinion is ungrateful and definitely not capable of Sydney’s job.
She’s makes such a great Sydney, beautiful!
On the other hand, what has her job ever done for her? She could keep building herself up and getting promotions, but no one would be looking out for her, she would have left the only people who ever cared for her. Her father would be ashamed of her if she chose Adrian, but when is he ever congratulating her work anyway? He never says anything nice to her and everything she does is wrong, she could go through her whole life with daddy issues and trying to please him, or she could think: ‘why do I care?’
She’s so scarred by her lifestyle and pressure that she’s anorexic, yet no one seems to notice but Adrian, because as long as she’s doing her job, why would it matter? Sydney points to her lily and says it’s her duty, because it’s her belief system, but the lily fails her, as she’s just another cog in a big machine and doesn’t matter to anyone apart from the people she refuses to get close to.
I’m going to try and not ramble on about Adrian, because I already covered his argument with Rose’s post.
Adrian needs to step up his game, and he is. When with Rose, he lent on her like a crutch and tried to impress her. Now he wants to be a better person, he’s giving up smoking, in return for Sydney to eat, he’s trying not to drink as much and he’s not having so much lady company. On top of all that, Adrian is in college doing art, having a work ethic, and trying to stop being a spoilt child feeling sorry for himself. “You make me want to become something greater than myself. I want to excel. You inspire me in every act, every word, every glance.” It is sad that he fell so deeply in love with Rose as she kind of abandoned him, but as we can see Adrian is the first to make a move to Sydney, because he falls in love easily.
Adrian is the only one who cuts Sydney some slack and realises she’s not there to sort out everyone’s problems and stands up for her when people are being rather unfair. Sydney has a life that’s boring, even though she was home educated, her father made sure he was strict and she is extremely clever, but this has gone unnoticed and she can’t do anything except her alchemist job. Sydney is craving an education so much that she chose to stay on at school even though she is years too old for it because she can’t go to college. Sydney is extremely too young to be tied down, it doesn’t seem like she’s had any excitement in her life and she’s always been told what to do. Adrian is yin to her yang, they seem to fit perfectly together. She brings a light into his life, and he brings a humour and fun that high-strung Sydney needs.
Is Adrian the right one for her though? He may be fun for a while, but does he seem like the guy who would be tied down? Sydney could lose everything if she chose him, what if it doesn’t work out or Adrian cheats on her? One slip of Adrian and she would be utterly alone in life. None of them are experienced in life or relationships, especially Sydney. Adrian smokes, drinks and is entirely inappropriate for her and her belief system, he says he’s going to quit, but these are coping mechanisms that he’s had for years. It’s not going to be easy peasy to drop them.
Looking very dapper, Mr Ivashkov
Sydney’s terrified of magic, she’s done a little, but only at the push of others and to save people, with other opinions pressuring her, she’s not sure what she believes anymore or if it’s been forced on her.
Do you think Sydney’s choice was harder?
Personally, I think it is. Rose had to choose between two hot men. Sydney has to choose between her belief system and a man who has completely changed her perspective.
Everything she has ever known is telling her magic and Vampires are wrong, Adrian is challenging that. Sydney is lost and doesn’t know what she thinks about anything, Adrian has got to be the only person not pressuring her into a belief…apart from at the end when he kisses her. He’s forcing her to face the facts and choose something, but whatever she chooses, it has to be her decision, not anyone else’s Maybe it’s time for the divide between humans and the vampires to be taken away.
If a hot dream walker, came into my life and kissed me, there is no debate what I’d do…but then I’m not particularly religious and I don’t have someone forcing me into beliefs.
What would you do? Do you agree with me that Sydney’s choice is harder?
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